The following morning I woke up feeling terribly blue. I was afraid that Ben would never phone me. “I’ll phone you some time”–a guy can easily say that to a girl, even if he has no interest in her and never plans to see her again. I stayed in bed until my mother left for work. I didn’t feel like talking to anyone. Then I washed and had a small breakfast. I thought about phoning Joyce, but I couldn’t think of what to say to her either. I felt so downhearted. All I could think about was Ben. What did I do to make him never want to see me again?